I have left the German capital
Left:
efficiency
below freezing temperatures and
excessively polite smiles that swear: I am not, cannot be racist
processed meat
kids in streets [not] trained by their parents to grow into bitter adults, or serial
killers, or worse:
aid workers with Africa tattoos on their necks
pretty, blue-eyed women on dance floors who only want to dance with me and
nothing more, because her friends say black people can dance and
perhaps, I might turn out to need papers…
perhaps, I might turn out to need papers…
or worse
I have left
to Abuja
where I watch the video, just released of our army massacring Shiites
under the watchful eyes of a community who hates them
I am listening to the deafening silence
Because we dare not mourn loudly
our enemies
felled by bullets bought legally.
I am drinking myself
into shapelessness
hoping I can shape this story
I cared about yesterday
but seems stupid today
Daylight does that:
turns perfect nighttime ideas
into shit
Over 2million books are published each year
Google does that:
brings facts and figure to your finger tips
whether you know what to do with it
or are just an idiot with a social media account…
I am thankful that anyone is reading
my damn novel
And now I have to begin writing
another damn novel
that will not change the world
that will not change the world
